True Friend???

Is it true that true friends exist...
doesn't seem that to be true...
they say true friends is hard to find...
they're one in million...
but if there is less then a million in my place...
does that mean that there is no true friends at my place???
urghh, i'm getting dizzy and dizzier...
some other people say that true friends come when we become one...
i tried to become one...
the one that people called as a true friends...
i lend my hand when they need...
i gave my words when they need comfort...
i become a handkerchief when they cried...
i will be the laugher when they make jokes...
i'll always be there...
but it doesn't seem to work...
they're still not becoming a true friends to me...
i wonder why???
after all i gave...
what did i get back...
an insultant...
backstabed...
they turn their back on me...
and treat me as a loser...
accept when they need $$$...
then they'll treat me as a wallet...
that doesn't even sound better...
what a life...
is there really is a true friends???